When Wanting to be Seen Feels Like a Risk

The Underpainting

Im scared

that wanting to be seen might make me unloveable.

Legs Tight. I'm running in still motion

Happiness.

Pride.

Confidence.

Erased from the chalkboard

Everything.

Ridiculed and shamed

Only show what is safe. Or show it all at once quickly - to see if they stay, or if they will hurt you.

In the kitchen on the wood floor with no hope in the air, the pages trembling in my heart.

Questioning every glance

the depth of all these layers, the beauty in the pain, and the brilliance in the overcoming

Thank you,

Thank you very much.

Maybe wanting is not the danger.

Maybe the danger was never being met.